Please pray for me

Dear friends,

I have no happy recipes or smart things to say today. I simply and humbly ask (please) that you would pray for me when you come into the Lord's presence.

A little while back, I found a small lump in my left breast. I had hoped it would go away. I have prayed for it to go away. It has not. It is still small, but I have begun to feel something in there.

Last year, we lost health coverage and other benefits with my husband's employer. We purchased private coverage for our children, but the expense is great. We couldn't afford coverage for my husband and I for the time being.

Last night, I purchased an expensive plan for myself. I don't know how or if we can afford this monthly expense right now, but I completely trust God to meet this need.

I am walking into something so frightening, but I am giving it all over to God and trusting. My life is His.

My mind wonders into the darkest corners at times. What would my husband do? My children? My babies......I LOVE these precious babies with all that I am. You know that if you read this blog. I cannot bear the thought of not being here to walk them through this life. When the mind begins to go there, I stop myself, and pray. Lord, remove these thoughts from this mind. Strengthen me, prepare me for what lies ahead.

Maybe, it will be nothing. Oh God, I pray it is nothing.

For now, I have to wait for the new insurance to take effect and wait an agonizing fifteen days before I can even call the doctor. I have not been diagnosed with anything, so I hope the insurance doesn't refuse to cover me, or try to say that this is a preexisting condition. Hopefully, there is NO condition and I have just been fearful for nothing. Please Precious Jesus, let it be nothing.

Again, please pray for the lump to go away and for me to be healthy.
Forever grateful,
~Brandi


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